Weapon: [Warlock] is Down

All was well, I was playing my Warlock happily today when one of the string snapped. Not sure if I used too much strength, the string just broke. But at least thank god it didn't pierce through my flesh or scratched me. And I don't have any spare strings, meaning I can't play it. Dammit.

I was looking forward to head down to Davis, or Swee Lee to do some shopping for my Warlock but quite short on funds. I had to work my ass off to feed my hobby, but there are other things that might be more important. Well, June is schooling, so she needs some pocket money & stuff. During schooling days she'll definitely hang out with her buddies & spend some money for sure. And just happens that her this friend birthday, then another friend's birthday, equals to extra expenditure. I mean that's fine, on top of that, it just so happens that her slipper kinda broke & she cut her toe. Don't ask me how the hell, it just fucking did. Being her boyfriend, I couldn't let her suffer wearing that flesh cutter, so I bought her a new pair. So my shopping for my Warlock would be put off till a later date, and now the strings broke.

I know that I would not be able to resist spending money if I went down to a guitar shop. So I told myself not to go. But now I really have to go. Wish I had enough to buy a set of EMG pickups too since the strings are out of the way now. (As you can see in the picture I removed the original bridge pickup to see what's inside. & yes, there's no strings, the bridge has been removed too.) However, I would need to modify the interior of my Warlock in order to capacitate the battery & switches, as well as space to pull the wires through. which would cost extra money.

I swear I'm only gonna get the strings... ok... dear agreed that I could get an extra cable for my pedal too... hehz...

Interpersonal Skills

When something goes wrong, you start blaming others as if its their fault & you are the saint. You feel sour about it & turn yourself against everyone. You start to make comparisons with the better things or people in your life. You assume that everything around you has changed, but have they?

More than often, we think that we are always right, or that we are everything in life -- At least in our own lives. Because we can only feel the happiness, the joy, the melancholy, the pain, the bitterness or the hardships in our lives, we can never share the feeling with others, or try to share with ourselves what others may feel about us. Naturally isn't it? ; If I would to slap you on the face, who would feel the pain? And who's gonna feel the 'glory'? However, my example is not meant for you to feel that you should feel its right for you be self centered. The unveiled truth is, the you revolve around the entire world, & not the world to revolve around you.

When have you last though about how others would feel about the actions you took? When did you consider the recent thing you just did was right or wrong? When was the last time you said sorry to someone & sincerely felt the need & remorse to do so? When... has it been ever that you did stop thinking only for yourself.

You could have been only living in your own imaginary utopia, the world that all others have to do your bidding. You must've probably have been an absolute asshole for a very extensive period of time. On the perspective from the higher view, YOU are only a dot amongst the rest. You are only an individual trying very hard to blend in with the rest. Though the others are also just a dot or many dots, but they are together. If you only think about yourself & that you are the most important, you will only be pushing the distance of the rest away from yourself. Being self centered, the friends you have will eventually leave you.

Have you been thinking true friends never were real? Or have they changed? Or was it you who changed? Good news, its true you haven't been the one who changed. Its your friends who really changed. But bad news again, your friends changed because you haven't changed at all -- haven't changed being the absolute asshole you always were. yes, it should have been you who should have changed, not your friends. Let's face it, if you as a minor have changed your faults, the major of your friends wouldn't have had the need to change at all.

Though it may be necessary to work together as a team or group, but it never has been a moral thing to duplicate other's work as pose it off as your own. Let's imagine this -- You had made an awesome new revolutionary invention that could change the entire world for good. You would be a legendary hero, multi billionaire & everything else to benefit. You could have gotten back what you lost, or get things your never imagined you could. A close friend who think highly of your idea comes up one day & eventually ends up stealing your project & claims it as her own. She declares to the the entire work it was her bright idea. She becomes famous, influential, strong & god damn filthy rich overnight whereby it was your effort & you who should have gotten the glory. Pretty bleak right? If it was supposed to be a individual assignment, you should have racked your own brains to deserve your own reward. You do NOT try to act nice and pretend to be interested so you can copy other's hard work one for one. They really spent their own effort & time to complete it whereby you just try to share the end product while you were simply too fuckin' lazy to even exercise your own brains to think about your own job. All you did was to eat, sleep, play, have fun, think about how to snatch back somethings you have lost when you know its impossible. Okay, sometimes you go & take up a job & earn some extra money. but you still never contributed to the job. Now how about you be generous enough to split your earnings with us? All your wanted is to benefit from others without lifting a finger but when its time to do your part you always were never around. How come you never seem so interested when everyone was suppose to chip in? In fact you were always late, or MIA or had some lame excuses. & quit using that reason of "Oh I was too tired" or " Ops... I forgot to do it." you bloody leecher.

What's the next dirty trick up your sleeve? Oh, how stingy you are, trying to save your own money at other's people expense? If you are a beggar I wouldn't complain sparing you some of my spare change. But you just have a bad habit of leeching other's or being a free loader. You seem to really care only for yourself. Sometimes, sharing things is basic courtesy. Its also the sweeter part as friends, they share weal or woe together. But never take things for granted. Offering you something free is just a way of saying that I regard you as a friend. But how could you ever be so thick skinned to keep collecting things for free. it costs other people money to get those items, but you gleefully take & accept as its your entitlement. Even if every single item cost only 50 cents, but if you had taken 20 items, it would summed up to $10, mind you. Don't you even know the limit? How about the other instance? Didn't you say you weren't hungry? Why are pecking food here & there from everyone's share? They used money to buy their own food, not for you to make your own complete meal by picking a bit from everyone. You think you eating Select chup chye peng ah? U gian peng ah?You are only allowed to devour the remains of what we aren't able to finish, since you are just like a dirty rat anyway. Sometimes I wonder if you would eat a classy restaurant, chalking up a bill of $100++ & you try to cheat your way by claiming the gentleman on the other table as your friend & put your bill on his tab. Well, you can't blame my imagination. Because, you typically possess such qualities. Look at you, you are such a grub. You are just so gian peng, until chut chup lor. Don't you know that?

You have the guts to claim the fault on others. You have the guts to express your unhappiness or take it out on others. Don't try to pretend to be the victim. Don't deceive others with your pathetic lies. Don't try to make use of someone & win over sides. If I am the only one who had been behaving strangely, or avoiding you, it could have been just me & my fault. But if everyone's doing the same as I, its time you had better reflect on what wrong doings you have done.Its obviously not us, its YOU. So stop making your petty claims that we hadn't been nice to you. You should have stop being that parasite. We have already left you, we might not turn back. Don't make anyone else turn their backs on you. I emphasize again,

We are not alone... You are...

How other's have been treating you is actually a reflection of how you've been treating them. So before your think about the things all around you turn bad, next time, attempt to use your under-utilized pea brain to deeply think what you might have done wrong in the first place.

"To Err is Man... but Man's biggest mistake is not realizing their own"

Pay Raise

Woohoo~!! I've got my first pay raise since I've joined my company...

But its only a god-damned $30 increment...

Oh well... guess I should still be contented that I managed to stay in this company for over a year.
Anyway I earn mainly from the commission not from their measly basic pay...

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